Sunday, April 18, 2010

Thursday, April 15, 2010

American Cancer Society

Most of you already know that I lost my amazing mom to lung cancer early Easter morning. She fought hard for almost a year, but the cancer was too aggressive. While she passed peacefully in her sleep, the cancer was a horrible disease that took all her quality of life. I also have quite a few other family members who have fought cancer as I'm sure you do too.

I am running the Wasatch Back Ragnar Relay in June this year for the American Cancer Society. The Wasatch Back is a 12 person relay where we run almost 200 miles over a 24 hour period from Logan, UT to Park City, UT through the mountains. I have done it twice before and this year I have pledged to raise $4200.00 to fight cancer. Any amount of donation is accepted and appreciated greatly. I know times are tough financially but if you can even donate $5.00, it would be very effective in helping me reach my goal for a great cause.

Please click on this LINK to donate in my name (under Rebecca Flinders) to the American Cancer Society.

Thank you for your time and your help.

Sunday, April 04, 2010

Easter Sunday

What a beautiful morning to reflect on the perfect life of the Savior as well as the amazing life of my mom. Mom passed away around 2am this morning peacefully in her sleep, while for the first time in at least a month, no one was watching her. Jenn and I had gone home yesterday afternoon to be with our families for Easter and my mom's two sisters were taking the night shift with her but had both fallen asleep. I think it was just what my mom wanted.

I am overwhelmingly sad, but have so much joy thinking about the glorious reunion she is having with my dad, her dad, her granddaugher, Natalie, and do many other people who love her. I am so glad that her tired, sick body doesn't have to suffer anymore. I know that when the time comes I will be reunited with my mom and dad too.

I am ashamed to admit this, but I know it is important to share my testimony about the last 24 hours. I woke up yesterday morning at my mom's house and was bitter with my Heavenly Father. I questioned how He could let my mom continue to suffer for so long after all of our prayers to release her from all of the pain and let her return to Him. I questioned how He could possibly love her and still let her go through such a horrible illness. I questioned how He could love me as an individual when I prayed so hard for my mom over the past year that she was sick and that I could be there with her when she passed but my prayers were not answered how I wanted in that either. After Val called me when mom passed away, I felt Heavenly Father's arms around me so strong that it physically hurt. I was overwhelmed with how strong his love really is for me and my mom. I learned when my dad passed and I am learning again, that Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us and He loves all of us so much. Although we don't understand sometimes, we need to not question, but have faith that everything is part of the plan and that everything happens for a reason. I know it was hard for my Heavenly Father to watch my mom suffer just as it was hard for Him to watch our Savior, Jesus Christ, suffer throughout His life, and ultimately on the cross in Gethsemane. He is perfect in all things and He will never abandon or betray us.

The ground is covered in white this morning and even though I have been anxiously awaiting Spring, there is something comforting about having an excuse to lay around with my cozy blanket listening to the message of the Prophet and the apostles during Conference with my family.

Thank you again for all of the prayers, fasting, help with my kids, meals, etc. It was an honor and a priveledge to be able to spend time with my mom and take care of her over the past month and for all of the tender moments I was able to be apart of with her and my siblings.

Funeral arrangements will be posted soon for those that are interested.